Entering 2012 purposefully

Dear fellow travellers on Planet Earth,
How is your ride going? 2011 sure has been a very intense year, to say the least!

We entered the ninth and final wave of the Mayan Calendar in March, and moved into a very fast vibrating evolutionary pace. We experienced evolutionary leaps in mere days, that previously took years - or even decades, or hundreds of years to reach. The world has seen so much intense change this year: Old and outworn patriarchal structures have been, and are, breaking down, which will leave room for a much better world to develop.

Then, on October 28th, all of the so called underworlds of the calendar came to an end - this date marked the end of a 16 billion years long evolutionary wave, according to scholar Carl Johan Calleman and more. I know many people have been so curious as to what "would happen" on that date, and many people were also eagerly anticipating the date of the portal of 11-11-11. Some of us may have felt a bit disillusioned that "nothing happened" on any of these dates - but is this really the case; that nothing happened? I absolutely do not think so. I think that we've been given great opportunities to ride these energy waves and work upon ourselves, and that the toughest job, for many of us, is over. But we're all on different journeys, and all on different evolutionary "stair steps" (as Denise LeFay on her excellent blog Transitions often mentions). And so some work remains.

I read somewhere that after the ending of the Mayan Calendar, we've entered into a sort of transition state where the old "ways" - or energy patterns - are, to a large extent, gone, while the new energies are not really grounded yet. The 21st of December, 2012, will be a very important date, because of different planetary and galactic alignments. So, between now and that date at the end of next year, will be a very important period of time. And it feels a bit like a void now, I think, for many of us, as we have for a long time been focussing our attention onto the final "days" and "nights" of the calendar and greatly anticipated its completion... without really knowing what we expected. But it is so important not to give up, not to go back to old and outworn ways, but to keep on dedicating ourselves to our own spiritual evolution and to the new and better world that we will all co-create, together with the other-dimensional realms (in fact we are evolving into multi-dimensionality).

Now is a very good time to think and feel deeply about what you would like to create for yourself and the world during the next year. Right now we're in a very special energetic "pocket", between eclipses, and even if you didn't use the energies of the past New Moon (solar eclipse) at 2 degrees of Sagittarius, you can still try to feel into it, find out where it falls in your chart, and pay attention to what will be highlighted this Saturday (December 10th) when there will be a lunar eclipse (17 degrees Sagittarius/Gemini). This eclipse period is special and magical. Feel into it.

Then, the next New Moon (new moons are excellent for manifestation work!) will be on Christmas eve! That new moon will be in Capricorn, which means it's such a good time to think about what you would like to get done for the next year. Capricorn focusses on the material, on structures and also on vocational goals and social standing etc - so it's good for organizing and getting practical things done, and putting energy into major goals, even one's life purpose. Possibly you will be busy opening Christmas gifts and eating lots of (heavy) good food that day, so it will be a very good idea to get prepared a bit in advance. Still, try to make use of the manifesting energies of the new moon, on Christmas Eve. Then, you can take your "new moon wish list" with you to that New Year's party, and into the next year...

An offer to guidance

As a help for you to use these energies to move consciously and with purpose into 2012, I'd like to offer you the service of working with your chart to help you get clear and conscious on the most pressing things/areas of your life - areas where you feel stuck and don't know how to move on - or simply to gain a deeper insight into who you are and what your purpose is, here on Earth, in this life. If you'd like to work with me, here's what you'd need to know: The readings I offer for the time being are relatively short (4-6 written pages, Times New Roman, 12pt). They are completely synthesised by myself, no computer programming involved. They zone into those areas of your life that you yourself feel are the most important for you at this point in time - or, if you don't have anything that you're experiencing as a particularly important area, I'll tune into what I feel is most important and urgent as seen in your horoscope. No matter if the reading focusses on a particular area of your own choice, or if is a more general reading, I'll always use my intuition to tune deep into the archetypes and into your higher self as I perceive it. I'll also work with tarot and oracle cards to further gain insight into your energetics.

After you've received the reading, there's the possibility of requesting even deeper insights into particular areas, if new questions and issues should be raised, for an additional, smaller fee. If you'd like, you can also request a very full and complete reading - please contact me to find out about details and cost. Also consider working with me regularly during a time period following after the reading. There might be some energy/pattern/issue that you'd like to explore more thoroughly within yourself, and I can help with that. Also in this case, please contact me.

The cost for a regular reading is 50 USD.

To go about requesting a reading, first contact me at capricorniancancer@gmail.com. In this mail, I welcome you to tell me a little bit about why you're seeking this guidance, what your biggest and most pressing questions or issues are - or if you're just looking to receive a deeper insight into yourself and your life purpose. I'll also need to know your first name, and if you're a man or a woman, and the exact time of birth (year, day, hour and minute) and place of birth (city, state, nation). Please note that the time of birth needs to be correct - otherwise the reading will be inaccurate. Please also note that I do not do readings for people under the age of 18 years.

When I have received your request and the data needed, I will confirm your request with an email and await your payment 50 USD (just click on the Buy now button under Soul Purpose Astrology Consultations, on the top right of this page). After I have received your payment, you will need to wait 2 to 3 days to receive your reading of 4-6 full text pages.

I greatly look forward to working with you!

Many blessings, and wishes of magical winter days,

~Anna~

Entering Autumn - the Third Part of the Astrological Year

We have recently entered Autumn, the third part of the astrological year, and it feels perfect to resume working with this blog - and working as an astrologer - within these balancing energies of the recent Autumnal Equinox (September 23, when the Sun entered Libra) and Libra New Moon (September 27). The Libran energies represent balance, harmony, relationships and co-operation, and the energies of the Autumnal Equinox are what's setting the scene for us all up until the Winter Solstice, when the final part of the astrological year begins. So, what is characterizing this autumn? What are we working with? Where are we, energetically? Well, I'm quite certain I don't need to say that the energies at play are intense - but still oh, so beautiful. Looking back....

(Picture: Autumn leaves by John Everett Millais)

... A very dominant energy of this year of 2011 - the very final year of the Mayan Calendar (ending October 28) - is the influence of both Uranus and Pluto in early degrees of cardinal signs: Uranus in early Aries, and Pluto in early Capricorn. These two slow-moving, outer planets play a HUGE part in the collective wake-up call and breaking down of old and out-worn structures that we are now experiencing on Planet Earth. Them being in EARLY degrees of cardinal signs means that they'll have an influence on ALL the solstices and equinoxes this year - which are so important markers during any year - as these are the times when the Sun enters the cardinal signs.

So, this year began DRAMATICALLY with the Spring Equinox Sun (0 degrees Aries) being tightly conjunct Uranus, and square Pluto (although not so tightly, Pluto being at 7 degrees Capricorn). At that time, we had just entered the Ninth and Final Underworld of the Mayan Calendar, and time had sped up x20! The tragedies of the earthquake and following tsunami, and then the meltdown of Fukushima, in Japan, had just happened. Personally I could definitely feel we were entering another phase of our evolution, and the chaotic and powerful energies ushering it all in. I also experienced much turmoil in my own life, and have gone through SO much change since then - especially during summer when we had three eclipses working very transformationally upon us. I'm sure many of you also can look back onto this first half of the astrological year of 2011, and feel that it has been... well, intense. Though that seems like a very small word. Special? Even smaller word, but yes, indeed. Deeply transformational, for sure.

And the Autumn Equinox keeps up the pressure - now, the Sun is in early Libra - opposing the point where it was at the Spring Equinox and opposing Uranus in early Aries. Both the Sun and Uranus are squaring Pluto in early Capricorn, so we have a so-called T-square in effect, and the profoundly disruptive and transformational energies are still very much at play. In all this seeming chaos, we need to recognize that transformation is needed, and we need to do our best to keep our inner peace and balance, and not allow ourselves to become involved in the outer dramas. Yes, BALANCE is really the keyword for the Autumn Equinox and entering Libra. Traditionally we set intentions for the year to come at the Spring Equinox, and come Autumn, we look at what has manifested and how we need to balance our creations. It's a lot about LETTING GO of what's no longer needed or wished for. Although you may not have been aware that you were doing this at the time of the equinox, you may have still done that kind of energetic work. And it's not too late. You should really use this time of the year to find balance and let go of superfluous ANYTHING. Especially this year.

Find your inner stillness, balance and peace

I would like to point out that it's definitely not all just chaos and upheaval in these times. Looking to outer events and what's being reported in mainstream media, this is probably what we see. It may also be what we feel inside of us. But might there be something completely different hiding in the stillness of the center point? Yes, and this is where we now have our very big challenge: Our firm decision to leave our old and outworn false identities and all its superfluous and heavy baggage behind us, and embrace a whole new paradigm where we live from our hearts and resume our intended "roles" as galactic citizens with multidimensional consciousness, and keepers of Gaia. And so when we let go of the chaos and drama, and move into Heart Consciousness, we move into the beauty and magic that are the TRUE nature of these times.

So, you know those rose-coloured glasses that people always told you that you needed to remove? - Well, what you saw through them is THE REAL THING! Because in truth, everything is LOVE. And existence is a magical adventure, which YOU create just the way you want it to be. You still need to know what energies you are working and playing with though, and that is how astrology can help you. If you are in the midst of emotional drama and feeling like you're only experiencing the negatives of the chaos and upheaval around you - perhaps feeling that nothing that you used to believe in is true, or that you have no idea who you truly are - it can be very difficult to find center space, balance and trust to be able to move on in a new world. In that case, please allow me to help you. I am here to guide you to move closer to your true self in these challenging but beautiful times. Astrology is my primary tool for this, and I combine it with my heart consciousness and my intuition. I also use tarot cards to tap deeper into what's going on for you right now, and what you can do to support yourself on your path. Please don't hesitate to contact me at capricorniancancer@gmail.com, to request a reading. There are different alternatives - I work both with written readings, and readings over Skype. If you are located in Sweden, I also work with in-person consultations. Right now I am located in Gothenburg.

I wish you very blessed, magical and balanced Libra days ahead!

With love, Anna

Unlock your potential with astrology

In the last two posts I've been trying to convey a sense of the grandness and importance of the time we're presently in - that is, the Ninth and final Wave of the Mayan calendar, which began on March 9 and ends on October 28 of this year. We are all experiencing this vibrational raise, and the best thing we can do is surrender to the process and become our True, liberated Selves. The evolution of Gaia and humanity is aimed toward us becoming multidimensional and experiencing unity consciousness. This means that we will be able to, while living in 3D - the physical world - simultaneously have a connection to both the 1st and 2nd dimensions, which represents Gaia's inner core - her iron core - and the elemental worlds, respectively, and then the 4th up to 9th dimensions. This will mean remembering our connection with Source and our cosmic origin, and truly living the truth that We Are One. This is all according to the plan, and it is also very, very needed. We humans are destroying not only eachother but Gaia, and it cannot go on any longer.

Rest assured that Gaia will not allow us to destroy her, and the plan is unfolding as it shall: humanity is waking up from deep unconsciousness. But, although this is already a done deal, You are needed to do your part! Each and every human being alive on planet Earth right now needs to wake up from their unconsciousness and step into their authentic, divine selves. There will be no more sleepwalkers abusing Gaia, but openhearted, spiritual humans tending to eachother and to her.

So, you are needed to do your part. And deep inside, although you may feel terrified, I am certain you are longing to align with your true, divine, purposeful self. What's so beautiful about all this, is that as all of us work with ourselves to liberate ourselves from our ingrained patterns and transform into the beautiful souls that we are - we help the Whole at the same time. You have an effect and an impact on everyone and everything that you interact with. Your love, your smile, your inner light spreads like rings on the water... and when you are in alignment with your soul's "blueprint", you will be able to help people around you, or animals, or the planet herself. There may be many, many different ways to do this - you are unique - and it is your uniqueness that is needed on the planet right now! What is needed is that you release yourself from ingrained, unconscious patterns that are dominating you until you become aware of them. There just needs to be light - consciousness - shone onto them, and you can liberate yourself from them. Consciousness is the first step. You may then need some guidance, coaching or the like to not fall back into your patterns - but what is so beautiful about this time, when the frequencies are so high and our planet is bathed in Light, is that karma transmutes very easily and quickly, and our potential to be conscious creators - or co-creators - is very great.

One step on your path to shine consciousness on who you are and where you're stuck can be to receive guidance from an astrologer. Gaia is intrinsically connected with the whole solar system (and of course, with the All), and everything that ever happens here is connected to the cosmic energies around us. You are imprinted with these cosmic energies, too, and exactly how this affects you is shown in your astrological birth chart. So, this chart really shows how you, as an Earth inhabitant, is connected to the Whole, and thus it shows your purpose here on Earth, what qualities and challenges you chose to come in with. And as the heavens continue their ever-swirling dance, the movements of the planets and the stars keep on affecting you in a special way according to your basic astrological make-up - or your basic nature.

If you are feeling stuck, or if you're just wanting to be your best, to understand yourself and why you're here, and be able to play your part in what is unfolding with love and purpose, please do not hesitate to contact me for an astrological consultation. The fees are very reasonable and I will aim to get to your most important issues that needs to be resolved or understood right now. You just need to email me with your questions, and I will suggest to you the type of reading that will suit you best.

Please see this post for more information on astrology consultations.

Sending you lots of love!

//Anna

A vision of Urania, lit up by the Leo Full Moon

Yesterday's Full Moon in late Leo highlighted my asteroid Urania which it conjuncted. She was one of the muses and she was, according to Darkstarastrology, the goddess of astronomy and astrology (they of course were the same in ancient days) and was also associated with universal love and the holy spirit ( read more in the link above). It was not long ago that I found out where my asteroid Urania is situated - or perhaps I re-found out about it, but it was not until very recently that I truly started paying attention to this asteroid and its placement. It is conjunct my asteroid Medusa which is the asteroid that I was actually interested in at the time when Urania made herself known to me, too.

I found out about these asteroids at the New Moon in Aquarius, which fell in my 8th house, and it was the 8th house emphasis that led me to exploring the dark moon goddesses (as this house has connections to Pluto and Scorpio, plus the new moon itself is a dark moon), one of which is Medusa (see Demetra George's book Mysteries of the Dark Moon). Medusa guarded the ancient female mysteries and had a connection with serpents - an animal which is of importance to me. What she represented got thwarted when she was adopted into the greek, patriarchal pantheon, and well - nowadays we think of her as that horrible woman with snakes instead of hair on her head, who kills you by just one look - especially if you're a man.

Connecting to positive Medusa can, I think, be a very releasing and healing experience for many women today - I know she is an important archetype for me to try to get in touch with. She is the clue to my primal, female, serpent power! And, she is conjunct Urania! And, I want to become a professional astrologer! And both of them are linked with my Mars, which I know I have some difficulty expressing positively. And the whole bunch were lit up during yesterday's full moon. This is really profound as I "discovered" them on the new moon leading up to this full moon. On the other side of the opposition were Sun, Mars, Mercury, Chiron and Neptune! Wow.... this line-up must have added to the feeling of profundity and sacredness this full moon had to it.

My intention for the new moon was connected to both Urania and Medusa, so I expected them to be highlighted right now, to be understood a bit better. And what happened, this afternoon, was I really "connected" with Urania. I was meditating, asking for guidance, and went deep into my inner imagery and felt that I was really in the flow. Then she was there. First, there was a beautiful , exquisite dress being shown to me: pale yellow, with a sweet pattern of embroidered dark red/brown flowers, and with a pretty lace collar - it had a renaissance feeling to it. Then I saw myself in this dress, up in a tower in the starry night, gazing at the heavens through my two (!) telescopes. I knew I was Urania, or embodying Urania, and I heard a voice assuring me that I am on the right path with astrology and need not worry about it, I already have it in me and am really talented at it.

I reappeared from the meditation by the phone ringing, and it was a friend who is an astrologer. She said: I just bought the most lovely, delicate summer dress!

So, there I had it! There are still more questions to be answered - the Medusa connection to Urania is not very clear to me yet - but I know now that astrology is a clue to gaining access to positive Mars. Medusa will probably follow.... I just find these things amazing. We are truly moving into a much better world and we need to start listening more to our inner guidance, and connect with our multidimensional selves. We need to align with our soul blueprint and step more firmly onto our true path. Astrology can help us getting attuned to the cosmic energies and align with the flow. If you would like me to help you understanding yourself and your path better, please contact me.

For more info about astrology consultations at Capricornian Cancer, please read this post.

I hope this post will inspire you to be receptive to what is shown to you at a Full Moon, and that this is a natural outgrowth of intentions set during the New Moon leading up to it. I will write more about "moon magic" in a forthcoming post.

I'm sending you much love and care! Please feel very free to comment upon any of the posts in this blog. I would love to get to know my readers a bit!

//Anna

Becoming an astrologer

Last year, about this time of the year, I was SO close to deciding to start reading people's horoscopes - for free - in order to gain experience in chart reading. I would be doing this in preparation to, later on, be able to work professionally as an astrologer. But then something else came up, and these plans were put on hold for the rest of the year. Now, they're surfacing again and I'm thrilled to tell you all about it!

The Zodiac (Wikimedia Commons)

For many, many years I have been reading about jungian psychology, symbology, dreamwork and, above all, astrology. The symbology became a foundation for me to stand upon; the symbolic language opened up the inner world to me, and this inner world turned out to be a basic clue to happiness in my life. I navigate from the inside - mostly - and without understanding the language of the inner world I would be quite lost. My conscious relationship to the inner world started with jungian psychology. I read a lot about it, and then had a chance to meet a jungian analyst during half a year or so, when I was about the age of 25. During this time I kept a dream journal and had a very active relationship with the symbol world and the archetypes. I think often this naturally leads on to astrology - it did for me at least. It was the beginning of a love story which is still going strong 10 years later, and I am pretty sure it will never end (as I am pretty sure I have been doing this in previous/parallel lifetimes, too). Astrology for me was about making the subjective a little bit more objective, tangible and comprehensible. It was about my inner experiences making sense in a larger scheme. It was about finding meaning. I could look to the symbols that came to me in my dreams at night, or in meditations and visions, and correlate them to what was going on in the heavens and how this triggered off my natal birthchart. My life began to make sense and it even seemed much more exciting!

And here I find myself many years after my initial meeting with this wonderful world, not being able to stop this urge to share what I've learnt and help people aligning more closely with their true selves through astrology. The Uranus transit to my MC in late Pisces, which began in June 2009 is now over. The final push in this career transition for me was the Jupiter/Uranus conjunction (which we've had for a while), which was exact on the day of the solar eclipse on the Capricorn new moon on January 4th, within a degree of my MC. With this energetical boost I suddenly felt VERY sure: what I will do is becoming an astrologer! I "happened to" find the website of the IAA (the International Academy of Astrology) and it did not take long until I had made my final decision to start studying with them. This is a preparation to become a certified astrologer with the ISAR or the NCGR.

I feel GREAT about this! Be prepared to see many new interesting turns and offers coming up soon on this blog :)! I am as eager to start reading charts now as I was last year about this time - but now I feel better prepared for it. So watch out for the next post, coming up soon.

Sending lots of love to you all!

//Anna

Entering 2011

As I sit down to write a blogpost for the first time in quite a long while, I'd like to start out by wishing anyone passing by a very happy and rewarding new year! May 2011 be anything you'd wish for and much, much more! Personally I have a very good feeling about this year. I don't expect it to be "normal" or predictable in any way, but I think it will be adventurous and fun. And I'm definitely in for that!

I just arrived back home from two weeks of christmas with family and then new year's with my partner. These two weeks have been a nice transition time from the finishing of the program I had been taking during last year and... well, and the NEW. Coming back home first seemed so very nice and I was full of energy to get organized, make plans and "integrate myself" to be able to move on, but then just a few hours later I found myself feeling completely lost and without any of all the energy I had expected. And this is where I am as I sit down to write. So I hope you'll bear with me as I try to write my confusion off and sort out my thoughts. This post really will be a true blogpost; blog as in weblog, a log for the web, a diary on the internet... Normally I try to keep the posts as general as possible - but I still do want to promote the idea that the personal can be general, when we try to make it so. (This may be my Cancer/Capricorn energies speaking!)

So, as I continue writing here I'll just admit that I have no idea where this post is heading or what I'd like to convey through writing it. Okey :)?

Franco Santoro who developed the concept of astroshamanism recently wrote about the tradition of recapitulation around christmas, as a preparation for consciously entering into the new year (http://astroshamanic.blogspot.com/2010/12/solstice-letter-from-christmas-by.html). I think it's something along these lines that I feel I need to do in order to enter into the new year of 2011 with clarity and intention.

The main question or issue for me is What is my path? (I think it's a good idea to clarify what the main question is when feeling confused). I think I may have written earlier about my MC, or midheaven, which is located in late Pisces in my birthchart. I think this placement of the MC often brings a lot of confusion about career or life path issues, where the native seeks some unclear spiritual "career" which always remains elusive and out of grasp. So, the question What is my path has always been a difficult one for me, but during the last few years with Uranus and later Jupiter transiting my MC, this question has become HUGE! But I also feel the transits have brought me to a greater understanding of my path, and not least, a greater feeling of freedom to explore this.

So when I recapitulate last year I keep my focus on my MC and the transits to it, and what has happened during the year, internally and externally, in matters of career and vocation; in matters of my life path. Keywords that come to me are Nature/Herbs/Flower essences, Healing and Writing. And Astrology, but it doesn't come on as strongly as earlier this year. Shamanism is also like a backdrop. Yes, there it is. Yes, these are great realizations that I have made during this year when I have transitioned from a permanent position as a school librarian ,which almost bored me to death, to an unsure but free and exciting future where I can explore how to make a living out of the above interests and passions that I have.

I have a strong feeling I need a mentor, a guide to help me develop my path and stick to it. I know the power of intention, but I find it so hard to come down to one intent and stick to it purely - I fear all other things thus get ruled out and what if the intent is not the right one? But then I also know this fear is just an excuse not to move onto the path, because I've learnt that if the intent is not the right one, I would simply just know this after a while. So I guess the fear is really about moving onto the path. It's so weird, what I wish for most profoundly I hinder myself from achieving!

OK, I'll keep on recapitulating and then try to set up some sort of plan - and I'll see you all soon again here on the blog. I hope this post has inspired some of you to also do a recapitulation in order to be better able to move consciously into 2011.

Love,
Anna

Autumn Equinox and Harvest Moon

Dear readers,

I hope you've had an.... interesting autumn equinox and full moon! It was yesterday that the Sun moved into Libra, marking the entrance into the third part of the astrological year. The energies of this autumn equinox merge with the potent energies of the cardinal T-square of Saturn in early Libra (conjunct the equinox Sun) opposite Uranus and Jupiter retrograde in late Pisces (conjunct the full moon that was exact a few hours after the equinox), and T-squaring Pluto in early Capricorn! So you can understand the energies have been intense, and possibly you have felt this intensity in your physical and emotional bodies. For example, many people have reported of heavy headaches and increased body temperature during these last few days. There has also been an increase in solar activity during this time with great solar flares erupting on the Sun's surface. For sure this all affects us.

Mabon - the celtic autumnal equinox

In Barbara Hand Clow's astrological analysis for the Virgo New Moon, she says it is time we all find our path and follow it. We need to think deep and hard about who we are, why we're here and how we fit into the bigger scheme during these important, majestic times of human evolution. In line with this, the autumn equinox is also a time of evaluating where you're at, looking back to the intentions you set at the beginning of the astrological year; the spring equinox. What did you intend to manifest for this year, and how have things turned out? Have your intentions yet manifested? Should you give it a little bit more attention - perhaps things are just about to manifest and you simply need to put in some renewed focus and energy to make it happen? Or, as Barbara writes, some things have not manifested because they just don't really belong in your life as an authentic, ascending human. You can read her Astroflash here: http://www.handclow2012.com/astroflash.htm. You will find a lot of helpful insights in her text, that hopefully can provide input as you assess where you're at during this powerful autumn equinox of 2010!

Lots of love to you all!
//Anna

The Taurus/Scorpio axis and Nature spirits

I have some trouble making up my mind as to what this blog is all about: What does it mean to me, why did I start it, what is the purpose of keeping it going? As I wrote in my last post, I feel that the blog reflects my 5th house/Scorpio, where I have Uranus conjunct North Node. Sitting by myself, moving deep into my psyche (Scorpio), and creatively (5th house) putting it all together by connecting it to astrology (Uranus) - and the North Node part of it "simply" giving me a feeling of doing something very close to my true path - it all did feel very important and rewarding for me. I also did start building a website that would be the basis of trying to practice my skills (if any) in chart reading, and possibly one day trying to do this professionally (even if that of course would require some formal training). As transiting Uranus is on my MC right now, I've had a lot of thoughts, plans, and not least anxieties around vocation, and with both the ruler of my MC (Neptune) and Uranus natally in the 5th house, I did get a very strong feeling that THIS was my true vocation!

As those of you who have been following this blog know, something else came up, and it is my deep hope that this new endeavour is also an important piece of the puzzle as to the understanding and finding of my vocational path. But I do tend to worry that this new endeavour is something that is representational of my South Node (in Taurus), and which would thus be a kind of regression instead of positive evolution. Now, I do know that things are not that black-or-white, but it seems I really have a need to sort these things out a bit, to know deeply my motives for beginning this course in egological farming/gardening. I think it may well be partly a reconnection to past lives issues, I just hope that it is a positive reconnection - one that reactivates important previous knowledge - rather than a pull-back. I have written quite a lot about Chiron also in this blog, and Chiron in my chart is losely conjunct the South Node. I have had Chiron transited (by trine) by Pluto recently, and so Chiron has become kind of activated in my psyche/soul. This is something entirely positive and really should convince me that I am on the right path here...!

I would really like to better understand the interplay of both the 5th/11th house axis, and the Taurus/Scorpio axis. I just found this interesting post on a forum (http://www.mysticalwonders.org/group/about2098.html):

My guess is you probably have a struggle with the material security driven side in you and the more instinctive spiritual deep side in you. The pull will be the cross between the necessaty to survive and compromise and feel secure with others, and breaking away from the material to find some kind of new beginning where the hidden nature of things becomes primary in your daily functions, I mean, sticking with that gut feeling, or vision, or whatever and seeing where it goes, how deep the rabbit hole goes. If you have strong Scorpio leaning in your chart, there will be something very strong inside you that needs mystical experiences, but the Taurean side will favour necessity over the life or death attitude of Scorpio, and death can occur in terms of release of old ways, life of new. [...] Also the polarity of the Scorpio Taurus axis is often linked with (if you believe) past-life in Witchcraft and magic, so there may be a powerful witch within you.

This rings very deep and true to me. Both the part of the Taurus energy representing material security needs, and the witchcraft/magic thing. I do not like to think that I may have (subconsciously) embarked upon this course to get that good feeling of knowing what to do every day, and having a secure, although low, income during these few months! But I do like the idea that this endeavour may be a good way to reconnect with a heritage that I resonate with - that of the wise woman who understands the natural world so well that she can work with it through "magic" - co-create with it. I am beginning to understand that an essential part of this course, for me, is about understanding that nature really is alive, not metaphorically but literally, in that the natural world is built and sustained by nature spirits, that we need to cooperate with.
To me it is really interesting to think of Taurus/Scorpio as Demeter/Persephone, and as the Ground/the Underground. It has a lot of pertinence to understanding my own motivations for doing what I'm doing right now! Thank you for reading this, and I truly hope that you have received some good input as to your own Taurus/Scorpio-, or 2nd house/8th house-, or even Venus/Pluto energy interplay! Please know that I would greatly appreciate to hear any thoughts that you might like to share here, by posting a comment below.

Sending wishes for much love and joy to you all!
Anna