A vision of Urania, lit up by the Leo Full Moon

Yesterday's Full Moon in late Leo highlighted my asteroid Urania which it conjuncted. She was one of the muses and she was, according to Darkstarastrology, the goddess of astronomy and astrology (they of course were the same in ancient days) and was also associated with universal love and the holy spirit ( read more in the link above). It was not long ago that I found out where my asteroid Urania is situated - or perhaps I re-found out about it, but it was not until very recently that I truly started paying attention to this asteroid and its placement. It is conjunct my asteroid Medusa which is the asteroid that I was actually interested in at the time when Urania made herself known to me, too.

I found out about these asteroids at the New Moon in Aquarius, which fell in my 8th house, and it was the 8th house emphasis that led me to exploring the dark moon goddesses (as this house has connections to Pluto and Scorpio, plus the new moon itself is a dark moon), one of which is Medusa (see Demetra George's book Mysteries of the Dark Moon). Medusa guarded the ancient female mysteries and had a connection with serpents - an animal which is of importance to me. What she represented got thwarted when she was adopted into the greek, patriarchal pantheon, and well - nowadays we think of her as that horrible woman with snakes instead of hair on her head, who kills you by just one look - especially if you're a man.

Connecting to positive Medusa can, I think, be a very releasing and healing experience for many women today - I know she is an important archetype for me to try to get in touch with. She is the clue to my primal, female, serpent power! And, she is conjunct Urania! And, I want to become a professional astrologer! And both of them are linked with my Mars, which I know I have some difficulty expressing positively. And the whole bunch were lit up during yesterday's full moon. This is really profound as I "discovered" them on the new moon leading up to this full moon. On the other side of the opposition were Sun, Mars, Mercury, Chiron and Neptune! Wow.... this line-up must have added to the feeling of profundity and sacredness this full moon had to it.

My intention for the new moon was connected to both Urania and Medusa, so I expected them to be highlighted right now, to be understood a bit better. And what happened, this afternoon, was I really "connected" with Urania. I was meditating, asking for guidance, and went deep into my inner imagery and felt that I was really in the flow. Then she was there. First, there was a beautiful , exquisite dress being shown to me: pale yellow, with a sweet pattern of embroidered dark red/brown flowers, and with a pretty lace collar - it had a renaissance feeling to it. Then I saw myself in this dress, up in a tower in the starry night, gazing at the heavens through my two (!) telescopes. I knew I was Urania, or embodying Urania, and I heard a voice assuring me that I am on the right path with astrology and need not worry about it, I already have it in me and am really talented at it.

I reappeared from the meditation by the phone ringing, and it was a friend who is an astrologer. She said: I just bought the most lovely, delicate summer dress!

So, there I had it! There are still more questions to be answered - the Medusa connection to Urania is not very clear to me yet - but I know now that astrology is a clue to gaining access to positive Mars. Medusa will probably follow.... I just find these things amazing. We are truly moving into a much better world and we need to start listening more to our inner guidance, and connect with our multidimensional selves. We need to align with our soul blueprint and step more firmly onto our true path. Astrology can help us getting attuned to the cosmic energies and align with the flow. If you would like me to help you understanding yourself and your path better, please contact me.

For more info about astrology consultations at Capricornian Cancer, please read this post.

I hope this post will inspire you to be receptive to what is shown to you at a Full Moon, and that this is a natural outgrowth of intentions set during the New Moon leading up to it. I will write more about "moon magic" in a forthcoming post.

I'm sending you much love and care! Please feel very free to comment upon any of the posts in this blog. I would love to get to know my readers a bit!

//Anna

The Taurus/Scorpio axis and Nature spirits

I have some trouble making up my mind as to what this blog is all about: What does it mean to me, why did I start it, what is the purpose of keeping it going? As I wrote in my last post, I feel that the blog reflects my 5th house/Scorpio, where I have Uranus conjunct North Node. Sitting by myself, moving deep into my psyche (Scorpio), and creatively (5th house) putting it all together by connecting it to astrology (Uranus) - and the North Node part of it "simply" giving me a feeling of doing something very close to my true path - it all did feel very important and rewarding for me. I also did start building a website that would be the basis of trying to practice my skills (if any) in chart reading, and possibly one day trying to do this professionally (even if that of course would require some formal training). As transiting Uranus is on my MC right now, I've had a lot of thoughts, plans, and not least anxieties around vocation, and with both the ruler of my MC (Neptune) and Uranus natally in the 5th house, I did get a very strong feeling that THIS was my true vocation!

As those of you who have been following this blog know, something else came up, and it is my deep hope that this new endeavour is also an important piece of the puzzle as to the understanding and finding of my vocational path. But I do tend to worry that this new endeavour is something that is representational of my South Node (in Taurus), and which would thus be a kind of regression instead of positive evolution. Now, I do know that things are not that black-or-white, but it seems I really have a need to sort these things out a bit, to know deeply my motives for beginning this course in egological farming/gardening. I think it may well be partly a reconnection to past lives issues, I just hope that it is a positive reconnection - one that reactivates important previous knowledge - rather than a pull-back. I have written quite a lot about Chiron also in this blog, and Chiron in my chart is losely conjunct the South Node. I have had Chiron transited (by trine) by Pluto recently, and so Chiron has become kind of activated in my psyche/soul. This is something entirely positive and really should convince me that I am on the right path here...!

I would really like to better understand the interplay of both the 5th/11th house axis, and the Taurus/Scorpio axis. I just found this interesting post on a forum (http://www.mysticalwonders.org/group/about2098.html):

My guess is you probably have a struggle with the material security driven side in you and the more instinctive spiritual deep side in you. The pull will be the cross between the necessaty to survive and compromise and feel secure with others, and breaking away from the material to find some kind of new beginning where the hidden nature of things becomes primary in your daily functions, I mean, sticking with that gut feeling, or vision, or whatever and seeing where it goes, how deep the rabbit hole goes. If you have strong Scorpio leaning in your chart, there will be something very strong inside you that needs mystical experiences, but the Taurean side will favour necessity over the life or death attitude of Scorpio, and death can occur in terms of release of old ways, life of new. [...] Also the polarity of the Scorpio Taurus axis is often linked with (if you believe) past-life in Witchcraft and magic, so there may be a powerful witch within you.

This rings very deep and true to me. Both the part of the Taurus energy representing material security needs, and the witchcraft/magic thing. I do not like to think that I may have (subconsciously) embarked upon this course to get that good feeling of knowing what to do every day, and having a secure, although low, income during these few months! But I do like the idea that this endeavour may be a good way to reconnect with a heritage that I resonate with - that of the wise woman who understands the natural world so well that she can work with it through "magic" - co-create with it. I am beginning to understand that an essential part of this course, for me, is about understanding that nature really is alive, not metaphorically but literally, in that the natural world is built and sustained by nature spirits, that we need to cooperate with.
To me it is really interesting to think of Taurus/Scorpio as Demeter/Persephone, and as the Ground/the Underground. It has a lot of pertinence to understanding my own motivations for doing what I'm doing right now! Thank you for reading this, and I truly hope that you have received some good input as to your own Taurus/Scorpio-, or 2nd house/8th house-, or even Venus/Pluto energy interplay! Please know that I would greatly appreciate to hear any thoughts that you might like to share here, by posting a comment below.

Sending wishes for much love and joy to you all!
Anna

Remaining centered

The past few months have been very tranquil and meditative for me, and I think they have been a bit slow for everyone, as Mars has been retrograde. For me this time has been very healing. Slowly I have moved out of stress and out of feeling guilty over not doing all those things that main stream society expects us to do. I have moved into a realization of a deep dilemma that has been very ingrained in my soul: I have believed that there is no way out of the trap of having to put up with just about any work, no matter how dreadful one finds it, to be able to survive (I wrote about this in my previous post). This dilemma seems to be clearly illustrated astrologically in that transiting Uranus, which is moving over my MC, is also opposed by T-Saturn, hovering at my IC - the dilemma of freedom vs security, where Saturn (security) previously has won at the expense of my spirit (I also have Saturn square Uranus natally).

Uranus the awakener

Saturn natally squares my nodal axis, so it is a critical planet in the understanding of difficult karmic stuff for me. The realization came about during a past life regression, so it was not just a mental understanding - which, I think, is why it brought about such a profound release. It all peaked when i had to make a decision about how to handle a possible job offer - a job I did not want but felt obliged to accept if I would be offered it. The regression helped me solve it, and after that, the Universe showed me that all was well by making me "stumble over" the course in organic farming/gardening that I have now finished the first week of! I'm amazed to have this happening to me!

I call this post Remaining centered because this seems to be the great challenge right now. All is well, but I have to make an effort to remain myself among other people and with a more busy schedule. In order to be able to write, I need a lot of time so that things can grow and become conscious in my mind before I can put them into words. I have less time now, but I really don't want to let go of this blog. I feel that this, too, is an important part of this transit of Uranus to my MC, as Uranus does represent astrology among other things. The course in organic farming ties in with the Taurean parts of my chart I feel, and that is partly my South Node. But the South Node is not isolated from the North Node - the direction of the Soul in this lifetime - and Uranus is conjunct my North Node after all. So I really will try to keep on writing in this blog and hope that it will help me remaining centered. And I hope that the readers that have found their way here will keep on finding it interesting!

I hope that you've all had a good start of the new astrological year starting at the spring equinox of last Saturday!
I wish you lots of love and joy!
Anna

Going with the Flow - Jupiter through Pisces

A couple of weeks ago I found the wonderful Gaian Tarot, created by Joanna Powell Colbert (http://www.gaiantarot.com/). This deck has so much to offer right now! It is created to mirror an earth-centered spirituality, and it has neither patriarchal nor ethnical bias. It focuses on healing, and on the fact that as we heal ourselves, we heal the Earth. Each week Joanna presents a Card of the Week for reflection, and last week it was the Explorer of Water - quite a lot about Going with the Flow. Joanna writes:

When he catches a wave, he is pulled into the present moment, hyper-aware and effortlessly concentrating. Just like in meditation, he will end up rigid and tight if he tries too hard to control his mind. The wave then overtakes him and he wipes out. But if he finds the sweet spot where all is effortless, the wave will carry him with exquisite grace.

In retrospect, I very much feel that the Explorer of Water sustained me during the past week. I had a lot of things on my schedule that seemed scary and new, and I also felt that I was faced with a huge dilemma, that seemed unsolvable in my mind, and which had me completely teared up last weekend. But this past week showed me that if we can decide to dive into it all - step up to the challenge with an open attitude where we are trusting, clearheaded and openhearted - we will be sustained and guided further onto our path.

The dilemma I was faced with was that I had been called to a job interview and I felt intensely that I did not want the job. But out of fear that I would lose my unemployment benefits if it turned out I had said no to an interview, I couldn't see I had any other alternative than to go to the interview. A few days before the interview was to take place, I was scheduled for a past life regression, and it turned out to be very helpful in understanding this dilemma. The regression did turn out as a mix of both real past life memory and kind of a symbolic inner journey. The common denominator was the dilemma of boundaries versus freedom - Saturn versus Uranus basically. The main character was a man who was so burdened by his duties and he couldn't find any other way out of it than to take his life! He longed so much to be in nature, and to be in the water (his yin, his feelings), and hated intensely to go to work in the big, dirty, noisy city.

In my natal chart I have Saturn square Uranus! And right now, as I have written about before, my IC/MC-axis is being affected by the Saturn/Uranus-opposition. The regression made me realize that I have really come into this life with the attitude that life is a life-long burden, with no way out other than death. So extreme. But now I have the chance to resolve this dilemma, and this knowledge means so much! It made me actually feel that I could go to the interview, be honest about how I felt about it all (in front of the interviewers), but also to feel that it would be OK if I got the job, and also if I didn't... And so I went to the interview with an open attitude.

Then, the day after that, an entirely new path opened! And Nature stepped in. I watched a TV-show about gardening, which I so much feel I would like to do some day - have my own garden and be able to cultivate vegetables and perhaps tend some animals in order to be at least a bit self sustaining. I got inspired to do an internet search for cooperative cultivation, and I found there are some projects going in my own city. But, I also found a course in organic gardening in a beautiful park setting that I absolutely adore, not far from where I live! The course is also about restoration of old garden and park milieus, as well as how gardening and cultivation can be used as therapy!

I have written about how I feel so drawn to herbs, and it seems to go well with Chiron in Taurus. I would love to learn about the natural laws, and this course would be perfect! I have applied for it, and am waiting now to see if I will get accepted. In that case, I would start in just a few weeks, and keep going til the end of this year. After that, I would really have learned a whole new occupation, but most importantly, I feel I would have connected to Mother Earth much more profoundly. On Starchild global, the reading for March talks much about exactly this thing - the connection to nature and to the elementals (http://starchildglobal.com/) - scroll down a bit to get to "The emergence and the elemental synthesis: March equinox 2010".

Can you see how I have felt like the Explorer of Water this past week? I still don't know what will happen, but I feel so much freer now, and positive that things will unfold as meant for me! I so much hope for such a release for anyone who reads this, too! As well as much love and joy, continuously!

Warmest hugs,
Anna

An edit: I was just pondering how transiting Jupiter is moving through Pisces right now, and this takes place in my 9th house. It goes well with studies - plus natally, Jupiter resides in Taurus and the sabian symbol is A vast public park. So, Jupiter through Pisces seems to describe this new endeavour for me - and we're back to where we began: Going with the Flow. Wow! How much more Piscean can it get? Now I'll have to edit the title of this post..!

Dear readers, what is Jupiter in Pisces triggering in your charts? Where can you try to find the flow?

Hugs again,
Anna

Priestess of Freyja

She's calling again - the Divine Feminine, the Great Mother, the Goddess, the Earth. Please listen to this with me:

Powerful, isn't it? Mari Boine is a Sámi woman, and I will explain why I resonate with this below. (If you like Mari Boine's music, here's her myspace-site: http://www.myspace.com/boine.)

A great theme for me during last spring and that also came up again during a workshop I participated in with Barbara Hand Clow in September was to research the divine feminine in history. I was very drawn to the Priestess archetype, and I had tried to participate in a "priestess course" just a few weeks before the workshop with Barbara, which somehow made me feel very uncomfortable and I quit it.

In the workshop when we did the Journey through nine dimensions, I experienced the World Tree (which is actually the 10th dimension - the one that links the other nine) as a pulsating, vibrant pillar of pregnant women - a line, THE line of "ancestresses". I also experienced a "northern people" - Siberian or Sámi, probably Sámi - in the 3rd dimension, as great guides for me. Not too long after the workshop, I got a migraine, and when in that state, my mind let me make important connections - between herbal knowledge (which was also a theme for me during the workshop), shamans, and Sámi.

And so, something happened just recently that made some pieces of this puzzle come together for me: A friend and I talked about how the sacred feminine has been buried for so long, and speculated about what it may have been like to be a woman during the bronze age or iron age here in the North. When I got home I happened to find a reference to an archeological finding: a woman's grave from the iron age, who is believed to have been a Priestess of Freyja! Also, the finding was right where one of my best friends lives - we had spoken of this finding but she did not know that it was so special!

A priestess of Freyja.... this had my mind wander. And it was when I searched for info on this topic that I found the music clip above - which had me completely in tears. It is because it's all coming closer to me - I'm no longer just fascinated by, say, ancient minoan priestesses - I am finding clues coming together for me personally, and it's SO amazing to read about this archetype in a northern setting. And Freyja among other things is a shaman I feel! In two weeks I will have a past life regression session, and I hope to find out more about this as well as other important things.

This is a very personal story, and I hope as always that the personal can be universal. After all, we are one. How does the divine feminine show itself to you? Are you paying attention to synchronicities in your life?

Warmest wishes for much love, joy and healing in your lives!
Take care,
Anna