The Taurus/Scorpio axis and Nature spirits

I have some trouble making up my mind as to what this blog is all about: What does it mean to me, why did I start it, what is the purpose of keeping it going? As I wrote in my last post, I feel that the blog reflects my 5th house/Scorpio, where I have Uranus conjunct North Node. Sitting by myself, moving deep into my psyche (Scorpio), and creatively (5th house) putting it all together by connecting it to astrology (Uranus) - and the North Node part of it "simply" giving me a feeling of doing something very close to my true path - it all did feel very important and rewarding for me. I also did start building a website that would be the basis of trying to practice my skills (if any) in chart reading, and possibly one day trying to do this professionally (even if that of course would require some formal training). As transiting Uranus is on my MC right now, I've had a lot of thoughts, plans, and not least anxieties around vocation, and with both the ruler of my MC (Neptune) and Uranus natally in the 5th house, I did get a very strong feeling that THIS was my true vocation!

As those of you who have been following this blog know, something else came up, and it is my deep hope that this new endeavour is also an important piece of the puzzle as to the understanding and finding of my vocational path. But I do tend to worry that this new endeavour is something that is representational of my South Node (in Taurus), and which would thus be a kind of regression instead of positive evolution. Now, I do know that things are not that black-or-white, but it seems I really have a need to sort these things out a bit, to know deeply my motives for beginning this course in egological farming/gardening. I think it may well be partly a reconnection to past lives issues, I just hope that it is a positive reconnection - one that reactivates important previous knowledge - rather than a pull-back. I have written quite a lot about Chiron also in this blog, and Chiron in my chart is losely conjunct the South Node. I have had Chiron transited (by trine) by Pluto recently, and so Chiron has become kind of activated in my psyche/soul. This is something entirely positive and really should convince me that I am on the right path here...!

I would really like to better understand the interplay of both the 5th/11th house axis, and the Taurus/Scorpio axis. I just found this interesting post on a forum (http://www.mysticalwonders.org/group/about2098.html):

My guess is you probably have a struggle with the material security driven side in you and the more instinctive spiritual deep side in you. The pull will be the cross between the necessaty to survive and compromise and feel secure with others, and breaking away from the material to find some kind of new beginning where the hidden nature of things becomes primary in your daily functions, I mean, sticking with that gut feeling, or vision, or whatever and seeing where it goes, how deep the rabbit hole goes. If you have strong Scorpio leaning in your chart, there will be something very strong inside you that needs mystical experiences, but the Taurean side will favour necessity over the life or death attitude of Scorpio, and death can occur in terms of release of old ways, life of new. [...] Also the polarity of the Scorpio Taurus axis is often linked with (if you believe) past-life in Witchcraft and magic, so there may be a powerful witch within you.

This rings very deep and true to me. Both the part of the Taurus energy representing material security needs, and the witchcraft/magic thing. I do not like to think that I may have (subconsciously) embarked upon this course to get that good feeling of knowing what to do every day, and having a secure, although low, income during these few months! But I do like the idea that this endeavour may be a good way to reconnect with a heritage that I resonate with - that of the wise woman who understands the natural world so well that she can work with it through "magic" - co-create with it. I am beginning to understand that an essential part of this course, for me, is about understanding that nature really is alive, not metaphorically but literally, in that the natural world is built and sustained by nature spirits, that we need to cooperate with.
To me it is really interesting to think of Taurus/Scorpio as Demeter/Persephone, and as the Ground/the Underground. It has a lot of pertinence to understanding my own motivations for doing what I'm doing right now! Thank you for reading this, and I truly hope that you have received some good input as to your own Taurus/Scorpio-, or 2nd house/8th house-, or even Venus/Pluto energy interplay! Please know that I would greatly appreciate to hear any thoughts that you might like to share here, by posting a comment below.

Sending wishes for much love and joy to you all!
Anna

Remaining centered

The past few months have been very tranquil and meditative for me, and I think they have been a bit slow for everyone, as Mars has been retrograde. For me this time has been very healing. Slowly I have moved out of stress and out of feeling guilty over not doing all those things that main stream society expects us to do. I have moved into a realization of a deep dilemma that has been very ingrained in my soul: I have believed that there is no way out of the trap of having to put up with just about any work, no matter how dreadful one finds it, to be able to survive (I wrote about this in my previous post). This dilemma seems to be clearly illustrated astrologically in that transiting Uranus, which is moving over my MC, is also opposed by T-Saturn, hovering at my IC - the dilemma of freedom vs security, where Saturn (security) previously has won at the expense of my spirit (I also have Saturn square Uranus natally).

Uranus the awakener

Saturn natally squares my nodal axis, so it is a critical planet in the understanding of difficult karmic stuff for me. The realization came about during a past life regression, so it was not just a mental understanding - which, I think, is why it brought about such a profound release. It all peaked when i had to make a decision about how to handle a possible job offer - a job I did not want but felt obliged to accept if I would be offered it. The regression helped me solve it, and after that, the Universe showed me that all was well by making me "stumble over" the course in organic farming/gardening that I have now finished the first week of! I'm amazed to have this happening to me!

I call this post Remaining centered because this seems to be the great challenge right now. All is well, but I have to make an effort to remain myself among other people and with a more busy schedule. In order to be able to write, I need a lot of time so that things can grow and become conscious in my mind before I can put them into words. I have less time now, but I really don't want to let go of this blog. I feel that this, too, is an important part of this transit of Uranus to my MC, as Uranus does represent astrology among other things. The course in organic farming ties in with the Taurean parts of my chart I feel, and that is partly my South Node. But the South Node is not isolated from the North Node - the direction of the Soul in this lifetime - and Uranus is conjunct my North Node after all. So I really will try to keep on writing in this blog and hope that it will help me remaining centered. And I hope that the readers that have found their way here will keep on finding it interesting!

I hope that you've all had a good start of the new astrological year starting at the spring equinox of last Saturday!
I wish you lots of love and joy!
Anna

The 5th/11th house axis combining with the MC, and Chiron as Shaman

Today a chain of thoughts brought me back to Chiron again. It seems that there has been a profound effect upon the workings of Chiron in my psyche as a consequence of transiting Pluto having trined it. For this I'm so happy - it has my intuition working so amazingly well, and I cannot imagine a more exciting adventure than the one that sets about through intuition. If you act upon those clear messages that come from your soul, and that are enhanced by synchronicity so that you just KNOW they are meaningful, then things will unfold in an amazing way. It's a certainty. Trust is the key.

(Book cover for "Chiron and the healing journey" by Melanie Reinhart)

And so what was it that led me back to Chiron today? I was pondering the fact that my MC at 26 Pisces will soon be transited by Uranus, and I had a realization about how the interplay of the 5th and 11th houses ties in with this transit to my MC. The MC or Midheaven marks the beginning of the 10th house in the horoscope, and represents the highest point of the heavens at the time of birth. Thus it represents the most "visible" you as a part of society. It represents your role in society, what comes out of your true calling or vocation. If you have planets conjunct or in strong aspect to the Midheaven or simply in your 10th house they are pointers to your strivings in society.

The MC in Pisces has had me very confused about finding my vocation. Pisces is not known for certainty of direction. It is more about dreams, intuitions and a longing for Source. Finding my vocation has always seemed very elusive to me. I have always had a nagging feeling of discontent, and a lack of something extremely important in my work - spirit. It seems that it is not until now that I am really getting ready to integrate my MC. I feel it's very much about daring to be seen in society as someone representing Piscean values, and working with them. And my feeling has been that this is quite controversial. The MC interplays with the IC (the Nadir) - your deepest personal roots - and this axis is often seen as representing the parents. I know for me the feeling that working with something Piscean might not be seen as acceptable is a view I've internalised from my parents. But with Uranus transiting the MC, I am finally breaking away from this internalised message and am ready to go my own way.

What has this to do with the 5th/11th house? Well, my MC is ruled by Neptune, which resides in the 5th house, in Sagittarius. Uranus, the planet that transits the MC is natally near the cusp of my 5th house, conjunct the North Node (NN) which is in the 5th. Uranus is the natural ruler of the 11th house, and Neptune in my chart is ruled by Jupiter (since it is in Sagittarius), which resides in... the 11th house! And the connection between my MC (Neptune ruled) and Uranus, to the 5th/11th houses, is emphasising my nodal axis which is in these houses. And the South Node (SN) is widely conjunct... Chiron! And Chiron is in the 10th (although quite close to the cusp of the 11th) - vocational issue again. Isn't that a fascinating loop? Chiron conj. the SN can be representative of past lives as a healer. It all ties in so beautifully into a web of energies, all correlated....

When I searched for more information on Chiron in the 10th, I found this site on Molly's astrology, where she writes that Chiron is associated with shamanism (http://north-node.com/astrology-tutorials/chiron)! Past lives as a healer, or maybe as a shaman? She also writes in one of the comments of the article that "Chiron's resonance is often with the herbal world". As you can read in earlier posts I have understood that there is something about shamans and herbs that is calling me - but I did not know it had to do with Chiron. Now I know, and I just feel... blissful! - by the accuracy and meaningfulness of it all.

Revel in your synchronicities, everyone!
I wish you lots of love and joy
Anna