When he catches a wave, he is pulled into the present moment, hyper-aware and effortlessly concentrating. Just like in meditation, he will end up rigid and tight if he tries too hard to control his mind. The wave then overtakes him and he wipes out. But if he finds the sweet spot where all is effortless, the wave will carry him with exquisite grace.
In retrospect, I very much feel that the Explorer of Water sustained me during the past week. I had a lot of things on my schedule that seemed scary and new, and I also felt that I was faced with a huge dilemma, that seemed unsolvable in my mind, and which had me completely teared up last weekend. But this past week showed me that if we can decide to dive into it all - step up to the challenge with an open attitude where we are trusting, clearheaded and openhearted - we will be sustained and guided further onto our path.The dilemma I was faced with was that I had been called to a job interview and I felt intensely that I did not want the job. But out of fear that I would lose my unemployment benefits if it turned out I had said no to an interview, I couldn't see I had any other alternative than to go to the interview. A few days before the interview was to take place, I was scheduled for a past life regression, and it turned out to be very helpful in understanding this dilemma. The regression did turn out as a mix of both real past life memory and kind of a symbolic inner journey. The common denominator was the dilemma of boundaries versus freedom - Saturn versus Uranus basically. The main character was a man who was so burdened by his duties and he couldn't find any other way out of it than to take his life! He longed so much to be in nature, and to be in the water (his yin, his feelings), and hated intensely to go to work in the big, dirty, noisy city.
In my natal chart I have Saturn square Uranus! And right now, as I have written about before, my IC/MC-axis is being affected by the Saturn/Uranus-opposition. The regression made me realize that I have really come into this life with the attitude that life is a life-long burden, with no way out other than death. So extreme. But now I have the chance to resolve this dilemma, and this knowledge means so much! It made me actually feel that I could go to the interview, be honest about how I felt about it all (in front of the interviewers), but also to feel that it would be OK if I got the job, and also if I didn't... And so I went to the interview with an open attitude.
Then, the day after that, an entirely new path opened! And Nature stepped in. I watched a TV-show about gardening, which I so much feel I would like to do some day - have my own garden and be able to cultivate vegetables and perhaps tend some animals in order to be at least a bit self sustaining. I got inspired to do an internet search for cooperative cultivation, and I found there are some projects going in my own city. But, I also found a course in organic gardening in a beautiful park setting that I absolutely adore, not far from where I live! The course is also about restoration of old garden and park milieus, as well as how gardening and cultivation can be used as therapy!
I have written about how I feel so drawn to herbs, and it seems to go well with Chiron in Taurus. I would love to learn about the natural laws, and this course would be perfect! I have applied for it, and am waiting now to see if I will get accepted. In that case, I would start in just a few weeks, and keep going til the end of this year. After that, I would really have learned a whole new occupation, but most importantly, I feel I would have connected to Mother Earth much more profoundly. On Starchild global, the reading for March talks much about exactly this thing - the connection to nature and to the elementals (http://starchildglobal.com/) - scroll down a bit to get to "The emergence and the elemental synthesis: March equinox 2010".
Can you see how I have felt like the Explorer of Water this past week? I still don't know what will happen, but I feel so much freer now, and positive that things will unfold as meant for me! I so much hope for such a release for anyone who reads this, too! As well as much love and joy, continuously!
Warmest hugs,
Anna
An edit: I was just pondering how transiting Jupiter is moving through Pisces right now, and this takes place in my 9th house. It goes well with studies - plus natally, Jupiter resides in Taurus and the sabian symbol is A vast public park. So, Jupiter through Pisces seems to describe this new endeavour for me - and we're back to where we began: Going with the Flow. Wow! How much more Piscean can it get? Now I'll have to edit the title of this post..!
Dear readers, what is Jupiter in Pisces triggering in your charts? Where can you try to find the flow?
Hugs again,
Anna
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