Transit Sun opposing Chiron/Neptune

As I was preparing to compose a new post for the blog I found myself coming back to the issue of Chiron and its links to both flower essences and astrology, which I have already written a bit about in earlier posts. I then found that with the Sun now at 28 Leo, it is opposing the conjunction of Chiron/Neptune at 28/27 Aquarius. With the Galactic Center at 26 Sagittarius, the past few days with Sun moving into trining the GC and opposing the Chiron/Neptune conjunction have had a certain unusual quality to them! For me this has involved a kind of impersonal sadness, a LOT of crying for unclear reasons and a feeling of complete weariness with life as it has been with all the 3D distractions.

If you have astrological placements around these points or at late Aries, Scorpio or Taurus, you may well have been experiencing something of an extra trigger, a highlight to the themes and energies involved for you. Perhaps you have been feeling very wounded and you just cannot find any more energy trying to find explanations for the wound, or finding mundane distractions to cover the wound up? Perhaps you are moving into an understanding that only Neptune's deep spirituality provides relief? Chiron himself functions as the bridge to deeper spirituality. Chiron is the initiator. It is a clue planet in understanding ascension, as it rules vibrations/resonance, the pineal gland, healing through vibratory means as crystals and flower essences by raising vibrations into a higher consciousness.

The Centaur by William Blake. Note the pine cone on the wand - a symbol for the pineal gland?

And with the Galactic Center tying in with this brief but powerful opposition in the sky - with the grand cross also at play making us all very acutely aware of all that is wrong and needs change on Earth - we have an opportunity for a deeper spiritual knowing of what ascension is about - as the Galactic Center is the 9D "spiritual heart" of our galaxy.

I hope I have managed to convey in an - at least a bit - understandable manner how I feel about the energies of these days, and if any of you have insights or experiences you'd like to share, please go ahead in the comment section! Wishing for a weekend with healing insights for you all!
//Anna

Going with the Flow - Jupiter through Pisces

A couple of weeks ago I found the wonderful Gaian Tarot, created by Joanna Powell Colbert (http://www.gaiantarot.com/). This deck has so much to offer right now! It is created to mirror an earth-centered spirituality, and it has neither patriarchal nor ethnical bias. It focuses on healing, and on the fact that as we heal ourselves, we heal the Earth. Each week Joanna presents a Card of the Week for reflection, and last week it was the Explorer of Water - quite a lot about Going with the Flow. Joanna writes:

When he catches a wave, he is pulled into the present moment, hyper-aware and effortlessly concentrating. Just like in meditation, he will end up rigid and tight if he tries too hard to control his mind. The wave then overtakes him and he wipes out. But if he finds the sweet spot where all is effortless, the wave will carry him with exquisite grace.

In retrospect, I very much feel that the Explorer of Water sustained me during the past week. I had a lot of things on my schedule that seemed scary and new, and I also felt that I was faced with a huge dilemma, that seemed unsolvable in my mind, and which had me completely teared up last weekend. But this past week showed me that if we can decide to dive into it all - step up to the challenge with an open attitude where we are trusting, clearheaded and openhearted - we will be sustained and guided further onto our path.

The dilemma I was faced with was that I had been called to a job interview and I felt intensely that I did not want the job. But out of fear that I would lose my unemployment benefits if it turned out I had said no to an interview, I couldn't see I had any other alternative than to go to the interview. A few days before the interview was to take place, I was scheduled for a past life regression, and it turned out to be very helpful in understanding this dilemma. The regression did turn out as a mix of both real past life memory and kind of a symbolic inner journey. The common denominator was the dilemma of boundaries versus freedom - Saturn versus Uranus basically. The main character was a man who was so burdened by his duties and he couldn't find any other way out of it than to take his life! He longed so much to be in nature, and to be in the water (his yin, his feelings), and hated intensely to go to work in the big, dirty, noisy city.

In my natal chart I have Saturn square Uranus! And right now, as I have written about before, my IC/MC-axis is being affected by the Saturn/Uranus-opposition. The regression made me realize that I have really come into this life with the attitude that life is a life-long burden, with no way out other than death. So extreme. But now I have the chance to resolve this dilemma, and this knowledge means so much! It made me actually feel that I could go to the interview, be honest about how I felt about it all (in front of the interviewers), but also to feel that it would be OK if I got the job, and also if I didn't... And so I went to the interview with an open attitude.

Then, the day after that, an entirely new path opened! And Nature stepped in. I watched a TV-show about gardening, which I so much feel I would like to do some day - have my own garden and be able to cultivate vegetables and perhaps tend some animals in order to be at least a bit self sustaining. I got inspired to do an internet search for cooperative cultivation, and I found there are some projects going in my own city. But, I also found a course in organic gardening in a beautiful park setting that I absolutely adore, not far from where I live! The course is also about restoration of old garden and park milieus, as well as how gardening and cultivation can be used as therapy!

I have written about how I feel so drawn to herbs, and it seems to go well with Chiron in Taurus. I would love to learn about the natural laws, and this course would be perfect! I have applied for it, and am waiting now to see if I will get accepted. In that case, I would start in just a few weeks, and keep going til the end of this year. After that, I would really have learned a whole new occupation, but most importantly, I feel I would have connected to Mother Earth much more profoundly. On Starchild global, the reading for March talks much about exactly this thing - the connection to nature and to the elementals (http://starchildglobal.com/) - scroll down a bit to get to "The emergence and the elemental synthesis: March equinox 2010".

Can you see how I have felt like the Explorer of Water this past week? I still don't know what will happen, but I feel so much freer now, and positive that things will unfold as meant for me! I so much hope for such a release for anyone who reads this, too! As well as much love and joy, continuously!

Warmest hugs,
Anna

An edit: I was just pondering how transiting Jupiter is moving through Pisces right now, and this takes place in my 9th house. It goes well with studies - plus natally, Jupiter resides in Taurus and the sabian symbol is A vast public park. So, Jupiter through Pisces seems to describe this new endeavour for me - and we're back to where we began: Going with the Flow. Wow! How much more Piscean can it get? Now I'll have to edit the title of this post..!

Dear readers, what is Jupiter in Pisces triggering in your charts? Where can you try to find the flow?

Hugs again,
Anna

The 5th/11th house axis combining with the MC, and Chiron as Shaman

Today a chain of thoughts brought me back to Chiron again. It seems that there has been a profound effect upon the workings of Chiron in my psyche as a consequence of transiting Pluto having trined it. For this I'm so happy - it has my intuition working so amazingly well, and I cannot imagine a more exciting adventure than the one that sets about through intuition. If you act upon those clear messages that come from your soul, and that are enhanced by synchronicity so that you just KNOW they are meaningful, then things will unfold in an amazing way. It's a certainty. Trust is the key.

(Book cover for "Chiron and the healing journey" by Melanie Reinhart)

And so what was it that led me back to Chiron today? I was pondering the fact that my MC at 26 Pisces will soon be transited by Uranus, and I had a realization about how the interplay of the 5th and 11th houses ties in with this transit to my MC. The MC or Midheaven marks the beginning of the 10th house in the horoscope, and represents the highest point of the heavens at the time of birth. Thus it represents the most "visible" you as a part of society. It represents your role in society, what comes out of your true calling or vocation. If you have planets conjunct or in strong aspect to the Midheaven or simply in your 10th house they are pointers to your strivings in society.

The MC in Pisces has had me very confused about finding my vocation. Pisces is not known for certainty of direction. It is more about dreams, intuitions and a longing for Source. Finding my vocation has always seemed very elusive to me. I have always had a nagging feeling of discontent, and a lack of something extremely important in my work - spirit. It seems that it is not until now that I am really getting ready to integrate my MC. I feel it's very much about daring to be seen in society as someone representing Piscean values, and working with them. And my feeling has been that this is quite controversial. The MC interplays with the IC (the Nadir) - your deepest personal roots - and this axis is often seen as representing the parents. I know for me the feeling that working with something Piscean might not be seen as acceptable is a view I've internalised from my parents. But with Uranus transiting the MC, I am finally breaking away from this internalised message and am ready to go my own way.

What has this to do with the 5th/11th house? Well, my MC is ruled by Neptune, which resides in the 5th house, in Sagittarius. Uranus, the planet that transits the MC is natally near the cusp of my 5th house, conjunct the North Node (NN) which is in the 5th. Uranus is the natural ruler of the 11th house, and Neptune in my chart is ruled by Jupiter (since it is in Sagittarius), which resides in... the 11th house! And the connection between my MC (Neptune ruled) and Uranus, to the 5th/11th houses, is emphasising my nodal axis which is in these houses. And the South Node (SN) is widely conjunct... Chiron! And Chiron is in the 10th (although quite close to the cusp of the 11th) - vocational issue again. Isn't that a fascinating loop? Chiron conj. the SN can be representative of past lives as a healer. It all ties in so beautifully into a web of energies, all correlated....

When I searched for more information on Chiron in the 10th, I found this site on Molly's astrology, where she writes that Chiron is associated with shamanism (http://north-node.com/astrology-tutorials/chiron)! Past lives as a healer, or maybe as a shaman? She also writes in one of the comments of the article that "Chiron's resonance is often with the herbal world". As you can read in earlier posts I have understood that there is something about shamans and herbs that is calling me - but I did not know it had to do with Chiron. Now I know, and I just feel... blissful! - by the accuracy and meaningfulness of it all.

Revel in your synchronicities, everyone!
I wish you lots of love and joy
Anna

Slowly with Saturn retrograde through my 4th

I have moved into a very inwardly focused mode. Soon already one month has gone by since I quit working. Time passes incredibly fast, and the days flow in and out through one another. But even if time seems to be passing at an intense pace, I still experience a slow pace inside myself. I am starting to really move out of stress, and instead I am almost beginning to experience the other extreme - I'm almost getting bored.

It seems to fit well with transiting Saturn going retrograde in my 4th house. Saturn began retrograding at 4.39 Libra on the 14th of January. That was the day before the Solar eclipse (it was also the day that I started this blog), which I experienced as a boost, but now that flow has somehow smoothed itself out, and I can really feel Saturn retrograde in my 4th, squaring transiting Pluto in 6th, as a hold-back for me now. This is OK! I can hardly expext to know right away how to shape my "new" life.

At the same time I'm SO eager to find that new direction! Transiting Uranus is working in opposition with transiting Saturn right now (although not to the exact at this moment - the first exact opp. was at 24 Virgo/Pisces in September, next will be in April this year at 28 Virgo/Pisces, then end July, 0 degr. Libra/Aries). When T-Uranus first hit my MC at 26 Pisces in June 2009, I could hardly resist resigning, but held it for a bit longer. Then Uranus started retrograding, but in September, when the opposition of Uranus/Saturn was exact, I decided to go ahead and do it! Resign!

Uranus retrograded back through my 9th house, back to 22.42 Pisces, and turned direct on December 2nd. On March 21st it will reach my MC for the 2nd time - and this is interesting, because this is the date of the Sprinq Equinox! This is the time when the new year REALLY begins! I just realized this, and I like it very much. The time between the Winter Solstice and the Sprinq Equinox is a time for reflection on the past year - not the very best time to set the intentions for the new year, anyway. So, I am thinking it's astrologically perfectly OK that I use these few months to get ready for the new.

I have a few embryos of plans - and today I ordered a little something to try to push myself in the right direction :). In my last post I talked a lot about Chiron, and in the book by Barbara Hand Clow that I've been reading, she mentions how Chiron also rules homeopathy, aromatherapy and other forms of energetics medicine. She moves onto using flower essences as an example, stating: "Minute quantities of flower essences are capable of causing a major shift in stuck emotional patterns, if a person determines the quality of an emotion and takes the appropriate essence to release it."

This had me remembering Bach's flower essences, which have fascinated me before, and I went to read about them again. And I found there's an essence, Wild oat (funny!), that seems to describe my constant dilemma. Wild oat "...is the remedy for people who feel they want to do something worthwhile with their lives but don't know which direction to go". (http://www.bachcentre.com/centre/38/wildoat.htm).
How great!

Hope you're all well,
much love and joy!
Anna

Astrology, and of late, Chiron!

Astrology is pretty much what has brought me to where I am today. Astrology is such a great tool to grasp how you are a part of the bigger picture. Without it, I really would have been a very lost soul. Astrology helps me to understand where I'm coming from, where I'm at today, and where I'm heading to - by means of looking into what archetypal energies are at play in every moment.

Astrologically, what interests me the most are the outer planets: Uranus, Neptune and Pluto. And most particulary; Chiron! Chiron is described by Barbara Hand Clow as a "transforming bridge between the inner and outer planets". It was discovered in 1977, at a time when, supposedly, there was a lot going on in the world that indicated new ways of understanding our consciousness (I wouldn't know, I was just a small child at that time ;D). Alternative healing methods is just one example.

In mythology, Chiron was a teacher, an initiator, a wounded healer, and not least a great astrologer. Chiron rules divination, initiation into "higher consciousness" (contact with the Higher Self or the divine), the pineal gland, crystals, ecology etc, according to Barbara Hand Clow in her excellent book Chiron: transforming bridge between the inner and outer planets. Chiron points to where different dimensions/realities intersect and thus to "holographic attunement"/dimensional attunement.

Just during the last few days, I've realised how much I've been influenced by Chiron lately. And I'm completely awed and amazed. Pluto is transiting the early degrees of Capricorn, has been trining my natal Chiron in Taurus in the 10th house, where also my progressed Midheaven is. I feel so much that I am in some sort of flow, with a heightened intuition (the pineal gland is connected to the third eye chakra), where the insights just keep coming, one thing leads me to another in a beautiful flow... Wanting to make the process visible to others by writing this blog could be the 10th house part of it.

So, dear readers, even if you don't have anything going on with your astrological Chiron right now, I still feel that he is of great importance in these particular times. In my understanding, evolving consciousness and dimensional attunement is pretty much what it's all about, right now.

Wish you love and joy,
Anna